I've been looking for work
and have begun to feel
as if finding a decent job
is about as promising an endeavor
as looking for a nice chaste lady
in an abandoned whore-house
Wandering through these ruins
there are haunts and relics that
make it seem as if such decent
and disparate things once existed
-like the words of old men that
speak of how they started-out
-or the framed first-dollar-earned
that remains perched on an office wall
behind some ancient owner's proud desk
These things seem as out of time
as a chastity belt left to rust
within the dust-covered space
of some faded chalk-outline
Now it seems every employee
considers themselves no more
than a prostitute of professionalism
bound by some indentured indecency
And somehow this defiled vacancy
is continually saturated to max-capacity
as vast covens of occupational occupants
steadily empty their hollowed-out shadows
into the abasement of this abominable abyss
In all this horror I wonder of the living
They must be out there somewhere
or hidden behind all this bitter darkness
And they must be waiting & wanting
to get out of these abandoned whore-houses
& to build a more lively place
where they can live, & work,
& do more than just phuck
and get phucked-over
Thursday, August 25, 2016
Friday, August 19, 2016
That Little Light Of Mine...
Before I was very bright
I used to sing songs upon command
One song, I remember
was about a light
& I'd sing it even without any demand
In that song I swore an oath
that I would so solemnly shine
a single little light,
a little light of mine
At that age such proclamations
were more a timbre than a testament
like vows of a prearranged espousement
or the pledge of allegiances to nations
Still,
I swore to take my little light
around the world & let it shine
(although the ways I'd not define)
As dim as I was then
I'd had some sense of light
but beyond where I had been
was a dark I'd yet to fight
According to the song
I would protect my light
from any that would blow
like winds of a Stygian-night
Now whatever light remains
of that little light of mine
still flickers, flares, & strains
as it refuses to resign
And I'll burn till I burn-out
in the decrescendo of a song
or an abruptly silenced shout
For that little light of mine
has just so long to shine
and that little light of mine
I'll let it...
I used to sing songs upon command
One song, I remember
was about a light
& I'd sing it even without any demand
In that song I swore an oath
that I would so solemnly shine
a single little light,
a little light of mine
At that age such proclamations
were more a timbre than a testament
like vows of a prearranged espousement
or the pledge of allegiances to nations
Still,
I swore to take my little light
around the world & let it shine
(although the ways I'd not define)
As dim as I was then
I'd had some sense of light
but beyond where I had been
was a dark I'd yet to fight
According to the song
I would protect my light
from any that would blow
like winds of a Stygian-night
Now whatever light remains
of that little light of mine
still flickers, flares, & strains
as it refuses to resign
And I'll burn till I burn-out
in the decrescendo of a song
or an abruptly silenced shout
For that little light of mine
has just so long to shine
and that little light of mine
I'll let it...
Sunday, August 7, 2016
Phantoms In Their Fugue...
These ghosts of people
that haunt themselves
with their own absence
They cast their vacant shadows
where the darkness has always
been indifferent and unaffected
by the nothingness of such
faint and flattened figures
All of them declare themselves
to be the hushed silences
that exist despite them
as they are but
phantoms
in their
fugue
These imaginary creatures
all walking, and talking,
and completely convinced
that they are each an enchanted hero
in their own live-action life-story
that unfolds unto this world-setting
And all these other characters
only mistake themselves as if
they are the true heroes
in some supplementary script
None of them see themselves as
the supporting characters,
villains, and extras
that have lost the real plot
They all complain to some
absent or deaf director
that all these others are
ruining all of their scenes
None of them can see
how they have been re-cast
as phantoms in their fugue
They have all been erased
by their own imagination
and reality has been removed
from their field of depth
or pushed out of their frame
As their eyes linger in lost lenses
they do not even notice
the lack of their reflection
And they go on like this somehow
perpetually oblivious and fading
as phantoms in their fugue
Thursday, August 4, 2016
Megalomania/Martyrdom...
My Truth
MY Truth
My truth is your command
My Gawd
MY GAWD
My gawd will guide my hand
I tell you
and it's true
cause I speak divine demands
I damn you
for what you do
cause it's not within thy plans
You asked me
what I'm for
and I've listed all I'm against
You ask me
much more
and I shake self-righteous fists
My bombs, my guns, by blades
Don't you know they've all been blessed
My wrath, my mind, my hands
Don't you know they'll never once rest
My truth
MY Truth
My truth is my mortal test
My life
My death
All to serve in this protest
I tell you
what to do,
how to think, and what to profess
I warn you
not to
illuminate things that I detest
You ask me
why not
and I list all the weapons I've got
You ask me
what I've wrought
and I brag of the battles I've fought
MY Bombs, MY Guns, MY Blades
Destroy the wrongs all yet to confess
MY Wrath, MY Mind, MY Hands
Anoint themselves by all that I attest
My blood
MY Blood
My blood boils over
My blood
MY Blood
My blood spills over
As I die
you try
to make sense of what I've done
As you cry
I sigh
and pray for vengeance on everyone
You see me
and you think
my hatred dies with me
You see me
and I wink
cause my war's still yet to be
My hate
MY Hate
My hate carries over
Your Love
your love
your love turns over
MY Truth
My truth is your command
My Gawd
MY GAWD
My gawd will guide my hand
I tell you
and it's true
cause I speak divine demands
I damn you
for what you do
cause it's not within thy plans
You asked me
what I'm for
and I've listed all I'm against
You ask me
much more
and I shake self-righteous fists
My bombs, my guns, by blades
Don't you know they've all been blessed
My wrath, my mind, my hands
Don't you know they'll never once rest
My truth
MY Truth
My truth is my mortal test
My life
My death
All to serve in this protest
I tell you
what to do,
how to think, and what to profess
I warn you
not to
illuminate things that I detest
You ask me
why not
and I list all the weapons I've got
You ask me
what I've wrought
and I brag of the battles I've fought
MY Bombs, MY Guns, MY Blades
Destroy the wrongs all yet to confess
MY Wrath, MY Mind, MY Hands
Anoint themselves by all that I attest
My blood
MY Blood
My blood boils over
My blood
MY Blood
My blood spills over
As I die
you try
to make sense of what I've done
As you cry
I sigh
and pray for vengeance on everyone
You see me
and you think
my hatred dies with me
You see me
and I wink
cause my war's still yet to be
My hate
MY Hate
My hate carries over
Your Love
your love
your love turns over
Wednesday, August 3, 2016
Fish Out of Water...
Fish flop and fly
frolicking in the flow
One fish flies far
without a splash below
Stranded on a muddy shore
and flapping for a storm,
Praying,
"Rain, Rain, drown this pain,
and I'll swim forever-more!"
As a clear blue sky burns so blue
with a West wind blowing through
On banks nearby today
the fisherman all say
Fish On
Fish On
They're running in this stream
Fish On
Fish On
They're biting like a dream
Fish bite and spawn
in waters oblivious of the shore
Flowing by as fly-fish flounder
under a sky the birds adore
Till drought will drain the water
and their beds become a shore
Then fish helpless to the vultures
are picked to bone-hull core
While far away at sea
the boatmen sign with glee
Fish On
Fish On
The nets are filled to their extreme
Fish On
Fish On
and live this sailors' dream
Schools of fish dismissed
diminished by the drought
while birds fester in their feathers
with no fish to fill them out
The fishermen all stranded
by boats with empty nets
As sharks prey on depths abandoned
to the abyss all else forgets
While all along the shallows
the hungry birds all scream
Fish Gone
Fish Gone
There's no sign of any bream
Fish Gone
Fish Gone
The water's turned to steam
Rains come, floods flow
and pour back deeper streams
From deep below
the realm of common schemes
fish come, fish flow,
and swim as new regimes
And other fish will fly so high
above the new reviving stream
Then birds and fishermen sing
the song of every spring
Fish On
Fish On
We've missed you in this stream
Fish On
Fish On
And spawn the next years' dream
frolicking in the flow
One fish flies far
without a splash below
Stranded on a muddy shore
and flapping for a storm,
Praying,
"Rain, Rain, drown this pain,
and I'll swim forever-more!"
As a clear blue sky burns so blue
with a West wind blowing through
On banks nearby today
the fisherman all say
Fish On
Fish On
They're running in this stream
Fish On
Fish On
They're biting like a dream
Fish bite and spawn
in waters oblivious of the shore
Flowing by as fly-fish flounder
under a sky the birds adore
Till drought will drain the water
and their beds become a shore
Then fish helpless to the vultures
are picked to bone-hull core
While far away at sea
the boatmen sign with glee
Fish On
Fish On
The nets are filled to their extreme
Fish On
Fish On
and live this sailors' dream
Schools of fish dismissed
diminished by the drought
while birds fester in their feathers
with no fish to fill them out
The fishermen all stranded
by boats with empty nets
As sharks prey on depths abandoned
to the abyss all else forgets
While all along the shallows
the hungry birds all scream
Fish Gone
Fish Gone
There's no sign of any bream
Fish Gone
Fish Gone
The water's turned to steam
Rains come, floods flow
and pour back deeper streams
From deep below
the realm of common schemes
fish come, fish flow,
and swim as new regimes
And other fish will fly so high
above the new reviving stream
Then birds and fishermen sing
the song of every spring
Fish On
Fish On
We've missed you in this stream
Fish On
Fish On
And spawn the next years' dream
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